consider me pissed off.
i was told i would be put on the schedule for next week.
only im not.
i havent been on for the past 2 weeks either.
why!
I like someone i didnt expect to fall for
Literally I usually fall for a guy whose tall, has longer dark hair, musically centered, and what not.
(Dylan is an exception because he’s well.. Dylan.. It’s been 7 years)
Anyway this new guy is about my hight (maybe a bit taller), a ginger with a buzz cut, has a quirkiness about him, but he has a beautiful personality, sarcastic and really funny, sometimes wears glasses (and looks a bit like a nerd in them BUT A CUTE NERD). Hes not your typical attractive person but idk I’m attracted to him.
Oh did I mention he’s in the national guard? Yeah that was a turn on for me.
For the friends who go to rosemount… Yes… It is who you’re thinking.
Is it dumb that I think about kissing you? How I’m never going to forgive myself for being a pussy and not kissing you when I had the chance? How I’ve been day dreaming of us being so close. How you’d gently take my head and kiss me.
I’m going mad because you’re almost the only thing on my mind. It’s almost like a cliché romance movie, a Shakespeare play, a too similar already done teen love story they played on ABC Family… It’s dumb how much I love you, think about you, dream about you, talk about you, spend all this time wishing for you. How I desperately want to know how you feel about ME. How I want to tell you how you’re my world.
Wishes and dreams are for fairy tales.. And we live in reality.. I’m bracing myself for a low painful blow if I find you don’t love me. But how could you?
I’m going to tell you, but I must prepare for the worst.
Butterflys
It’s like no matter what, he gives me butterfly’s. When I see his face, hear his voice, have him hug me, or touch me in some way, if I see him walking in the distance, when I hear his name, when we message each other or talk on the phone (even if its something small) I get butterflies. And it’s one of the ways I know I’m completely fallen for him.
How DARE you say I’m a stupid bitch! You should consider yourself lucky I promised I wouldn’t let you or Anna know I know what you effing said…. How DARE you. Not only do I not like you for the way you treat Anna YOUR EFFING GIRLFRIEND!!!!! but the fact you’re such an ass hole to everyone and think you’re all high and mighty.
I REALLY don’t like you, and I hope Anna dumps your sorry ass because you’re dirt worthless. When the two of you first started dating I was happy, I thought you were a decent guy and Anna so deserves one after all the assholes in her life. No…. you’re NOT decent. You bring her down ALL the time. You said in the beginning how you loved how she was so comfortable with being herself. Now you say you wish she was more girly, you point out her flaws, YOU SAY SHE NEEDS TO PLUCK HER MUSTACHE BUT FUESS WHAT BUDDY, I LOOKED REAL HARD FOR IT AND SHE HAS NOTHING!! You’re also two-faced. You defend a friend because an old friend accused her of something she didn’t do, then you go back and side with the whore. Yeah, she’s a whore and you know it. Hell you’ve helped her cheat on her current boyfriend. In fact, I know you know she cheats on him all the time while she’s in college. You still choose her over other friends, good decent friends, YOUR OWN GIRLFRIEND!!!!
so how DARE YOU CALL ME A STUPID BITCH BEHIND MY BACK FOR BEING IN A DIFFERENT PROM GROUP EVEN THOUGH I NEVER EVEN SAID I WAS IN YOURS. SORRY I CAN’T HELP PAY FOR THE FUCKING LIMO!
I hope life and karma back hands you so hard and you realize what a dumb bitch YOU are. Ass hole….
ah crap.. know what, before venting out my upsetness, im going to wait.
patience. this is what i need. i will have patience.
